” No matter how much status you may have at work or in school, you don’t have more status than that jaw-dropping woman who’s dressed to kill and turning every head as she glides through the club. No one does. Not the rockstar. Not the billionaire.” A line from Rules of the game by Neil Strauss. A line that engraved in my heart.
There is a beautiful girl in our town. The only girl whose skin is so flawless. Whose lips look like red wine. When she walks, every single head turns to get a glance of her. Every woman hates her, because their husbands are staring at her. The type of woman, we used to call, “HD edition” or in pick up artist term, “HB 11”. But in India we don’t have those so called pick up artists. Few kids who have read that book and want to learn to get these girls or Naturals who always get them.
My wife hates me when I tell her that I want to be a pick up artist. I want to get every girl I meet or see. She always get upset because she thinks that she is not a good wife, a man can truly love and can’t think of anybody else. Its not correct. I know because she is a very nice person and I love her. But then I ask myself, “If I really love her then why I want those girls, Why I want to be a pickup artist? Sometimes my mind says, “We are men and we are born with it”. We undress every woman in our imagination to see how beautiful she looks from inside. We have mind sex with female friends, our neighbour’s daughter or even our friend’s sister”. Yes, many men or I should say only few men will really confess that they think about their friend’s sister. Even if they talk about, how wrong it is in reality. But the truth is we don’t have much control on our mind when it comes to sex.
But having sex is not only the reason. There is much bigger reason than this is “Status”. Yes, we want to get every other girl is because it increases a male reputation in the society. I know many will raise their eyebrows and start to collect their theories and argive about it. But for a minute, just for a minute, Remove your judging perspective and think about it. Aren’t the society really think this as a status symbol.
Men worship man who can get girls. They want the same. They want to befriend him, they want to be his student so that they can get the same results.
Even women are no different. They are attracted to the guy who is surround by girls. It seduce them. They want to be with that guy. They want to know why others girls are flattered about him. What’s so special about him.
One day, I asked my wife, “What if god give you a choice of choosing over two guys in a room. The first guy who is simple and innocent and second guy is simple but have lots of girl with him. Whom she wants? The answer was the second guy. She was right. Every one of us will choose him because he has the social proof of having something interesting. A man attracts more women when he is around with other women.
But these thoughts give rise to another question that always haunts me. When we all are guilty of it. We all think about other women then why don’t we accept it. Why we teach our kids that it is a bad thing. Why every one of us want to do this but judge others when someone else do it.
Then I realized, “We teach our kids the things we wanted to do but couldn’t. We want them to be a honest man because we couldn’t”…
Ek chhoti si poem for all those people who are confused about life, whose faith is long gone, Everything looks faded, and hope is no where to found. Yes, I am one of them and this is what I am feeling right now…
Aisa waqt aaya hai Zindagi me,
bharosa sab se dagmagaya hai,
Khudaa sabd jhutha sa lagta hai,
Khud ko aaj tanhaa paaya hai…
Charo taraf andhera hai maano,
Bhatakta ek jugnu aaya hai,
Mamooli si roshni kya raasta dikhayegi usko,
Sikaar aaj khud chal ke aaya hai…
Bichhde hai sab iss bheed me,
Jeene me abhi mazaa kaha aaya hai,
Saalo se lage hai tayaari me, kuch kar dikhane ki,
Par sayad hamara waqt kaha aaya hai…
Soch soch ke thak jayenge ek din,
Wo upar wala kis mod pe laya hai,
Jab tak samajh payenge iss zindagi ko,
uss din koi kahega, “Chalo upar se tumhara bulawa aaya hai…”
From many days, I was busy and was not able to draw much and post my progress. Today i learnt the fundamental of cartooning from tutsplus. It is a great tutorial for a beginners. I decided to learn the female anatomy block by block approach. First i will learn to draw the head and its proportions and then will move to shoulders.
I think this approach will be better. I always download tutorials from deviantart but instead of trying them i let them stay in my phone for forever. I will do something about that too. I also need a self help book to boost my inner sparks. I am really feeling very low from many days. I am not working on my book also.
I was downloading videos about
inking and coloring in photoshop. I learnt the basics of Pen tool few days ago. I tried coloring by my own way. I know its still not effiecient now. I have to learn more about anatomy, color theory and shading techniques.
This is my second drawing. I hope i dont lose focus.
I did not get much time to draw from few days. I dint even post my progess from past 6 days. So today i am posting the work i have done so far.
I am not learning from anybook. Because there are so many options available. I just cant focus. I think i have to find a manual. Its better if i work according to a plan.
Today I tried some poses. Mainly all of them were standing poses. I tried to recreate what i learnt yesterday. But failed. For satisfactory results i have to work hard. I get time to drawd at night only. Tomorrow i am thinking to stick with the pose thing. Hope to perform better tomorrow.
Till then Have a good day!!
Ek adhoora khwaab,
Ek ankahi baat.
Ek tasveer uski dil me,
Aur mere pass, uska kuch bhi nahi….
Aankho me intezaar uska,
Baato me bas uski baatein,
khayaalo me wo mulaakaate,
Aur mere pass uska, kuch bhi nahi,
Wo mehak uske haatho ki,
Wo saraarate un pyaari raato ki,
Wo manana usey, rooth jaane par,
Waqt ka thehar jana uske nazar aane par…
Dekh mujhe ab wo bas nazare chura leti hai,
Maano yaad usey ek lamha bhi nahi,
Hongi uske pass kisi aur ki baahein ab,
Aur mere pass in yaado ke siva, kuch bhi nahi…..
So the long awaited phone finally launched. Record numbers of user saw the lauching of this phone via streaming. It shows that how much they trust Micromax brand.
Micromax Canvas 4 A210 specifications:
*5-inch (1280 x 720 pixels) HD capacitive touch screen
*IPS display with corning gorilla glass protection
*1.2 GHz quad-core processor
*Dual SIM (GSM + GSM)
*Android 4.2.1 (Jelly Bean)
*13MP rear camera with LED Flash,1080p video recording
*5MP front-facing camera
*3.5mm audio jack
*1GB RAM, 16GB internal memory, expandable memory
*upto 32GB with MicroSD
*3G, WiFi 802.11 b/g/n, Bluetooth, GPS/A-GPS
*2000 mAh battery
The Micromax Canvas 4 is priced at Rs. 17,999 and
comes with a free touch cover worth Rs. 3000 that
would let you use the phone even when the cover is on.