Ek chhoti si poem for all those people who are confused about life, whose faith is long gone, Everything looks faded, and hope is no where to found. Yes, I am one of them and this is what I am feeling right now…
Aisa waqt aaya hai Zindagi me,
bharosa sab se dagmagaya hai,
Khudaa sabd jhutha sa lagta hai,
Khud ko aaj tanhaa paaya hai…
Charo taraf andhera hai maano,
Bhatakta ek jugnu aaya hai,
Mamooli si roshni kya raasta dikhayegi usko,
Sikaar aaj khud chal ke aaya hai…
Bichhde hai sab iss bheed me,
Jeene me abhi mazaa kaha aaya hai,
Saalo se lage hai tayaari me, kuch kar dikhane ki,
Par sayad hamara waqt kaha aaya hai…
Soch soch ke thak jayenge ek din,
Wo upar wala kis mod pe laya hai,
Jab tak samajh payenge iss zindagi ko,
uss din koi kahega, “Chalo upar se tumhara bulawa aaya hai…”
I know this question does not relate to anyone. But its about a serious issue we are facing today.
There is an illegal wineshop near our home. Many hooligons come there to drink. They are always a trouble for the colony. They dont care about anyone. They drove their bikes fast, even if the kids are playing the street. They just dont care. Today one of our neighbour stopped one of them and told him to drive slow. But he start arguing with him. Then the wineshop owner(One of the hooligon) came and try to convince all the people there. Telling him not to argue. Everything seem ok. But after a few minutes, that hooligon called his other friends. They came and start yelling, “Now come out. we will see who will stop us”. We all got frieghtned. I opened our door and saw no one was outside in our street except them. They were using abusive words. Few of the people gathered and started enjoying the show. After few minutes they went away.
After half an hour, our neighbour( who stopped those hooligons) was standing near a shop and talking to some people of the colony. Those hooligons came again. I was not there. But my brother told me everthing. They start beating him. Everyone was looking at them but no one was stopping them. My father opened the gate and ran to stop them. But they also caught my father. My younger brother and mother also got into the fight to stop them. But they din’t stop. They hit a Beer bottle on his face. After beating cruely and breaking his nose. They left us and ran away on their bikes. Suddenly the whole colony was there. Everyone was just talking about the incident. Everyone one of them was saying that they should be in jail but no one wants to step out. Bo one wants to be a witness in the court.
My father and other neighbour went to the Police station but the police dont want to take a strict action. Their behaviour is so disgusting I cant tell. They are just there for compromise and bribe. Everything is so frustating.
I wonder what is happening. We all are taught to be a true man and to fight against bad. But no one is doing this. Police knew about that illegal wineshop from years but no actions are being taken. The whole colony know about this but no one want to step out against them. Everybody just talk from their behind. I know we all are scared. But by unity we can do anything.
People just complain. I dont know what will happen? I know these types of incident will happen again. But why are we teaching our kids those lessons about being brave, fight against evil, blah blah blah, when we also dont have the courage to fight back.
Zindagi humesha yuhi karvate badalati rahegi,
Kabhi roti toh kabhi hasti rahegi,
Aaj tanha ho toh niraash naa hona,
Kabhi rahoge akele toh kabhi sath basti rahegi…
Waqt humesha ek sa nahi hoga,
Aaj dukh ki raate hai toh khuskhiyo ka kal bhi hoga,
Dil me chhipe bharose ko kabhi tootne na dena,
Aaj musibato ka sailaab hai toh kal hal bhi hoga….
Kismat aise maud pe le jayegi bhi,
Jo karna nahi chahte the, wo karwayegi bhi,
Umeedo ki patang ko darr kar kabhi chhodna nahi,
Aaj ye Zamee par hai toh kal bulandiya payegi bhi….
Zindagi ki har raah pe ek imitihaan aayega,
Apno se tu khud ko milo door payega,
Jab himmat jawaab dene lage toh khuda ko yaad karna,
Agar wo yaha tak laya hai, toh aage bhi le jayega…..
-Sujit Kumar Yadav
From many days, I haven’t posted any update. I am not drawing much. Because I was focusing marketing my book. My another blog page rank has decreased drastically. I dont know what happened. Today I tried drawing Elsa from Frozen. She is beautiful and sexy.
I am not coloring any of the drawings. Instead of that i am thinking to create an android game. But I am not able to create a character for it. I still have to learn alot about graphics design. As you can see in screeshots, there are lots of doodling in my drawing notebook. It was done my Moni. He completely filled it with color lines and awkward shapes. But he is a little child and learning. Hope he keep drawing all his life 🙂
Today I tried some poses. Mainly all of them were standing poses. I tried to recreate what i learnt yesterday. But failed. For satisfactory results i have to work hard. I get time to drawd at night only. Tomorrow i am thinking to stick with the pose thing. Hope to perform better tomorrow.
Till then Have a good day!!
It would feel like movie dialog, “But seriously now a days I am having a wierd pain in my heart like something is missing, something is not right…Like I am missing something. Many people will say Get a girlfriend or something like this. But I already have a girlfriend still I am feeling like Something is missing. This heartache is eating me inside. I feel like I am lost.
To know about it more I went deep down in my heart, and realized that may be its because Life is not going the way I want to. I dont want to live a life of mediocrity, I want to feel each moment. But its not happening. I am 23 year old now and I havent done anything that I can say I have made any difference. I want to do many things like I want to be a writer, I want to be a movie director..I want to roam all over the world. I want to live a life with no limits but Fear of unknown is holding me back. I dont know what will happen. May be I want too much or may be I am thinking too much. But I know I have to work for it.